A Brief History
I want to give a brief history of what happened before April 2022. Looking back I can see that it was a long time coming. In the summer of 2021, before my husband started attending church services at his parents home he became friends with a traveling pastor and invited him to our home to speak to me. I was skeptical but ultimately agreed because I wanted to be supportive to my husband. The pastor gave me his testimony and explained how my life could change if I gave my heart to Jesus. So we said a “repeat after me” prayer and I did. I had to go to work immediately after that and as I was about to leave my “morning time” psych medication was lost! I never misplaced my medication because I was so dependent on it at the time. I was beginning to run late so I had to leave without taking it. For some reason, this left me very emotional and in the car I was confused as to why I was so teary over this. While I was driving, I thought about Jesus and what had just happened at my house. I honestly didn’t believe that it was all real, so I asked in my head, “Are you real?” And I heard a resounding YES. I felt silly about the whole thing so I tried to stop thinking about it and focus on going to work. I stayed emotional and teary for my whole shift.
Beginning in fall of 2021, I was a frequent tiktok user and started getting really interested in the conspiracy theories I would see. Not that I believed many of the ones that I was seeing but I was (unknowingly at the time) starting to question the things I’ve always been told are true. It also didn’t help that I was a huge pot head and would partake almost daily. Needless to say I was developing anxious, existential thoughts sometimes to the point of paranoia about the world, society, and life in general. I was really aware of the fact that we are so tiny and insignificant in the grand scheme of things, and here I am worrying about things like a credit score. I was deep into this type of headspace throughout winter 2021 and by January I had cut off my friends (all 2 of them) and just felt weird most of the time. The only way I could describe it was I felt really aware of my thoughts and actions and it made me uncomfortable. I hadn’t realized how inauthentic I was living but I also didn’t know how or really want to change it.
In the early months of 2022, I had completely quit drinking energy drinks and Diet Coke (I had a problem) and had quit smoking cigarettes back in October. I was starting to look at my habits and the way I lived my life and desired change. I was also filled with inspiration and motivation to deep clean, rearrange and redecorate my house. It finally started to feel like things were improving in my life. Until late March, when I had the most evil and vivid nightmare. It felt so real and it was absolutely demonic. I was traumatized and would cry at random times throughout the day, even at work. This went on for about 2 weeks and I thought my mental health was declining again.
Then, one day as I was driving home from work in the early morning, I was looking for a YouTube video to listen to while I drove home. In my recommended feed, there was a video “Conspiracy Theories with Shane Dawson”. Perfect! And it was a good length to last me the drive home. As I listened, they were discussing a topic called “remote viewing”. I learned all about it and couldn’t believe what I was hearing, I was fascinated! When I got home I started researching it as much as I could and found real, actual studies about it. I saw that one of the people that used to use this technique for the government wrote a book about it, so I ordered it on Amazon. When it came, I couldn’t wait to start reading it. In “Remote Viewing: The Complete User’s Manual for Coordinate Remote Viewing”, in the introduction, the author, David Morehouse, PhD tells the reader that the ability to remote view is in everybody, and how learning how to do it can change your life. This was honestly my first taste of spirituality and it pulled at something deep within me. Then, in the first chapter, he explains what it is and it’s history. I followed up with some online research and was able to find research studies on the NIH website. At the time, this was exactly what I needed to finally believe. I was stuck in “logical” thinking and through my education was trained to only believe what can be directly observed. But when I read this book, something inside of me clicked. It seemed that it was exactly what I was looking for and it blew the roof off my mind! If remote viewing is real and possible for everyone, what else is possible? It was this expansion of my mind that I believe led me to being open to my deliverance on April 17, 2022.